Christmas

Many do not really understand the true meaning of Christmas, which is why so many people have been hurt and many lost so much money. In this month of December a young man working at Wal-Mart was severely injured due to a rush doing opening hours for the Christmas sale. However he was rush to the emergency room and no one stopped to check on him or see if he was okay. Christmas has been about gifts, although we were told it is better to give than receive. We have token that concept and made it Christmas leaving out the fact that December the 25th stands for something much more than that. To me Christmas is about Jesus and His’ birth. When giving gifts and knowing that it is Jesus birthday what do you give Him? From the book that He left behind and calls The Guide he wants nothing but your life, your praise, and your worship. After all He is the Son of God, Kings of all Kings, and the ruler. All the gifts that one may buy Him already have and blessed you to give to someone or receive from someone. He has no limitations and gives us day after day to be right and glorify Him. However if you do not know him you probably do not believe this Jesus loves you and me so much he allow us to celebrate our holiday on His’ birthday. I consider that true love, so love is what we should give back on this Christmas Holiday.

The Move

Today is December the 2nd, and it marks one whole week before I get out before Christmas break. I am so excited because once I leave for Christmas break there is no coming back. I will be starting my life as a young adult living out on my own and working to pay bills and rent. Sometimes I get scared because I do not know if I am making the right decision for myself right now. However I also feel that if I do not do it now than I my never grow up and be a young adult. With God on my side I know that all things are possible and He will protect me and keep me. But it is something in the back of my mind that keeps telling me that my mom is not happy with the fact that I am moving out of her house for good to start my own life. There have been many times when I tried to talk to her and explain to her why I am moving and her opinion about me moving, she always make up some crazy excuse for us not to talk about it. I feel as though she will be okay because she will be within driving distances of my new home. Although I am very excited about the move, I still worry about the work because that is something I really do not want to do right now while I am in school.

Friends

Everybody needs somebody even if it is his or her mother, sister, brother, or even dad. Many do not understand the importance of that special someone until he or she is gone. Regardless of how something my make one feel one should always feel as though they have someone who will listen, love them, and care. To many it does not matter what others may say and think about them but on the inside it is hurting so bad because one know how much it hurts to be talked about. However that is why one needs someone else to care and love them and explain to them why life and things are the way that they are. It is always good to have someone who understands the problem and situation that you are facing because one day it may happen again. Those encouraging words that were giving during the last incident will motivate and give security to one, and may make them know how and what to do when faced with it again. When in trouble you should be able to call that individual and say whatever on your heart without the other person telling everyone else. However I call this special someone my friend. A friend is there through thick and thin, and may still be there even when your boyfriend or girlfriend is not.

Selfish???

Going home is something I never thought I would want to do, however now that I am actually away, I am ready to go back. So many issues and situations has occurred since I been gone and I feel as though it never would have happened if I would have been there. Bills have gotten harder to pay, step father being rushed to the emergency room, brother barely going to school, and my mom is having more headaches now than she ever had before.
This semester has been like no other, I think that a family crisis has occurred. a question sticks out in my head “Is this a sign for me to be heading back home?”, and I plan to do just that, but I do not want to forget about school. I cannot forget about school because school is going to get my mom and family out the situation and hole that they are in. I pray to God that my father will eat right and do as he is told to better his health and life. With me being home school is no choice for my brother. Because I am there to help keep things under control my mother headaches should go away, and hopefully not return.
You never know what you have until it is gone, I had a family who cared and needed my help but did not realize it because I was being selfish. But I was always told “Let no man despise our youth, but be thou examples of the believers in words, conversation, spirit, faith, charity, and purity.” 1 Thessalonians 4:12

WHO IS HIRING??

Do you have a job? If so please tell me where I can get one. However in the streets of Hattiesburg, Mississippi getting a job has been the hardest thing for me to do. I have put in about twelve applications at many different places like retail stores, hospitals, and even restaurants. I have not yet to receive a call from any of those places, but those places had signs and posters telling the customers “NOW HIRING, looking for experiences with smiling faces.” And yes I have those qualities. Although I feel like giving the search I cannot because I have a car which includes a car note, car insurance, and most of all gas. With the way that gas prices are going I need to work two jobs. Not only do I have to worry about my car but food to eat and clothes to wear. Clothes are something that I like, but I do not necessarily have to have it, but it sure does feel good to buy a new shirt, pair of pants, or shoes every once in a while. But the food is something I feel I cannot live without. I cannot go get five dollars from mom or dad because they are not here with me. And when they do send money it seem as if it was not enough to start with or I spent it too fast. A job is something I want so I can have my own, plus that is given.

Going HOME

Have you ever wander how you ended up at the college that you are at? Do you feel that you made a big mistake and is prepared to go back? The impression that the University of Southern Mississippi had on me was so glorious to the point where my family, friends, and teachers all wanted me to go. Pictures and information about different events were sent to my house with people on them looking so happy and proud to be a student or teacher. Therefore I made USM my top choice for college, I consider it to be my first draft pick. In high school we were allowed to have two College Days and for both of my days I chose to go to the University of Southern Mississippi. When I went for the college day the school was overpopulated and so beautiful that it was irresistible. However once I finally arrive to the school it was still beautiful but the population seemed as if it did not exist. Although I came to school to learn, I also came to meet new people and have fun (not always clubbing, but some clubbing is included). After clubbing week after week and spending that five dollars to get in (which adds up), clubbing gets boring and there is nothings else to do. Campus activities are not enjoyable, I feel that it is all about the Benjamin’s. In order to do this one must pay a fee of this amount. The people that I usually see on campus are freshman, young couples, and if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend back at home you end up alone because you are doing everything it takes not to cheat. My feelings about USM has changed dramatically and would like to go back home, which I plan to do.

He Has REASONS

Many do not understand that things happens for a reason, whether it may be good or bad. I was told that God has a reason for adding and subtracting things in and out of our lives. Those things may be something we value, love ones, or even accidents.
We value things like cars, clothes, and shoes, just as God give it, He will take it away. He expect for us to share what he has blessed us with and given to us. We can be blessed to have much but it can be lost in a fire, storm, or hurricane just because we are not obeying Him and do as He tells us in His’ Word. God will give us someone special just to show His’ love through them or even to make an example of them. Some do not understand that one day we all will leave this world and we must be prepared. Some of our love ones may be prepared to leave and was ready to go home. However some are not but God did all that he could do in making His’ love shine through the good and the bad, showing that there is no other like Him. Some overlooked that and did whatever pleased them. Accidents may occur for a wake up call. Warnings after warnings, God may have done everything He could do to get one attention but yet you are still rebelling against Him. He may let an accident occur to let you know who is boss.
But yet, some of those things I do not understand but will not question but God said so. It is God grace and mercy that He allow things to happen for a reason instead of giving up on us without cause.

Grow or Change

Have you ever thought once you leave out of high school a lot of things would change? If not, I have, and many people have not yet grown up. After leaving high school I thought that a lot of things would change like the drama, needs for studying harder, or even the excitement and surroundings.
Drama usually ends by the time one has reached college, but it only has gotten worse. Many expect for college students to put away the childish behavior and behave like young adults. Since I have been in college there have been many arguments: who left the light on in the room, its your turn to take out the trash, or even something so simple like, your stuff is taken up too much space. However one feel as though those things are the least concerns and there are bigger issues than that. Stolen items, loud music while studying, and taken without asking should be more bigger concerns.
Studying has just gotten easier for me, four test an semester is the life but at the same time it can be tricky. One may never know what will come next when studying. Unless you know the materials that are given, it may be difficult. Because of my teachers in high school the courses I take now only seems like an review. I cannot speak for many but for me it has been a breeze.
If you are a college student and still behaves like a twelve year old my advice to you is to grow up. However studying is needed to succeed so study even if you think you know it all.

INSPIRES

Music is something I consider my inspiration and relaxation. There have been many times when I thought I was going to burst wide open until music started to play. Whether it is gospel, rap, country, and/ or R & B, I love it all. Just as yoga does music calms my spirit and relieves stress and tension.
Gospel allows to me to stay on track with God, it remains me that He is real and He has not left me yet. I realize that He is here spiritually everyday to whisper in my ear that He loves me but physically by music it is as if He is really here speaking to me. Rap gives me energy and helps me pick up speed. Reminding me that I can be mean when needed, but reality is still reality not matter how much I try to cover it up. Country music has true meaning but makes me laugh. Last but not least, my favor is R & B. It calms my spirit and ease my mind. When life is a mess music is what I listen to in order to get back on track. It takes my mind off the negative things and put my mind on the positive ones.
Music is what I call inspiration. It speaks for you when you cannot speak for yourself. Reality can be given to many through music without being arrogant or mean.

TiMe

How well is your time spent? Do you organize your time, divide it equally, or spend it wisely? Time is one of the most valuable and important things in life. Some fail to realize that one may be here today and gone tomorrow. They even take time fragrant it or may not even notice how one is spending it.
When one think of time one may think about school and classes. Being late for class or school is not a good beginning because most teacher gives out the most important information at the beginning of the class. The information can be little as saying that one will have a quiz tomorrow or be on time tomorrow you will receive an A for today. Although those are just examples, it can actually occur, but if you are not on time how would you know. Time is the first priority in school.
Time management is a good thing for children, teens, young-adults, and adults. Learning to manage time may even be for a job interview. One should never be late for a job interview, if one thinks that he or she will be late call to re-schedule or let someone know the situation. Divide your time evenly among your family and friends, school, and/ or work. An old saying that I was always told “ If it is God’s will “ you may be able to see or talk to your friends and love ones, go to school, or even work. God may not want you to have one more hour, minute, or second.
When spending , spend it wisely and be positive because tomorrow is not promised.

Four Musketeers

Have you every thought how life would be without those special people in your life? For many people, they feel as though they could not live without their parents, sisters/brothers, or spouse. Life would not be the same for me if my mother and sisters was not here to help cherish every moment and detail of my life.
Although I put God first in every thing that I do I still consider my mom to be my heart. She is my inspiration and motivation; the love that she has for me is like no other. My mother allows us to be ourselves when we are with her, but yet she stills reminds us that she is the mother and we are her children. The worst of the worst, and the unforgettable but I love so dearly, are my sisters. We talk among each other as if we are a secret organization, when we are together we put everything else behind us. We focus, listen, and advise each other. Out in public no one understands our inside relationship because it is very different from the others. Even if I had the chance to change my family I would not. We are one of a kind and highly favored. We believe strong heartily that a family that prays together stays together. Look as us we are here and together.
We argue, we fight, we might even cry but our love for each other is so strong. We may not always be together but when we are we are The Four Musketeers.

How To.....LOVE?

Love is patient, love is kind; love is not enviouse or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth, it bears all hings, believes all things, hopes all things endures all things. Love never ends ( 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 [NRSV]).
When many think of love they think of a man and woman together in a relationship. However, love come in many different ways whether it is physically or spiritually. In order to love one must love himself or herself. Putting yourself first is not always a good thing, it sometimes lead to control and most people do not like to be told what to do and how to do. This four letter word cannot be sum up or described by one word, it has multiple meanings and means a lot according to whom that person is. Being there for someone contributes to love just like listeningor spending time with that special someone just to make them feel special. Love also means given up the right for the wrong or being the bigger person to prevent jeopardising the relationship.
No one can show someone how to love. Love must come form within and it must be honest and true. One may not love their parents as they would heir boyfriend, girlfriend, or spouse, because that love is different. Sex does not mean love, sex comes from a marriage with love in it. It has a gift from God to all mankind who are united as one in Him.
How to Love? God is love.

ChAnGe

Clubing, drinking, and hanging out all night is what I thought of collge; however once I arrived it was very different. College is a dramatic change it consists of adapting, meeting, and managing.
I never thought that once I left my home I would miss it. I went from baths to showers, queen size bed to twin, and from knowing that I am surrounded by love to like, maybe. Not only that, mom is no longer there to wake me up for school, or even cook my breakfast and dinner. She cannot fuse at me for not cleaning my room or the kitchen. I even miss the argurments and fights between my sisters and brother. Sitting on the porch watching the cars and people walk and drive by. Where as in college I have to remind myself to do these things. Sitting on the porch would only be a memory that I wish could happen again before my adulthood begins. I feel as though a reniassance has took place.
Because I am a friendly person it is very easy for me to meet new people. A big nice smile and a great personality is my technique. So far everyone that I have communicated with was just excited as I was, even just to speak. It is good to be around people who like to do the same things as me because it makes it easier for us to start a conversation. Where as if I were at home I might stare at them in silence. Since I have been in college my fears for speaking out loud has changed, I am not afraid to make new friends. The GEWW Crew knows just what to do in order to bring people out and show them many new things with good clean fun. Although they have their own name I still consider them the Southern's spirits.
Time management is damage. It is so mch to do and experience in one day. I am in the process of leaning how to mangage my time and fit everything I want to do into one schedule. Not only is time hard to handle but MONEY is a major problem. After walking into the bookstore I seen many things that I wanted, but I realized that I cannot afford it, because the money I have has to last me for the rest of the week. I cannot go out toeat as much, so I eat on campus because that was already prepaid for. Now I park my car and walk around campus which saves me about forty dollars a week. Less driving, less gas, equal lesser money spent. I was getting use to someone else buying me the things that I wanted and needed. However, I have to do these things all for me.
Without even realizing it, I am becoming an adult because I am teaching myself how to go about change and management.