Selfish???

Going home is something I never thought I would want to do, however now that I am actually away, I am ready to go back. So many issues and situations has occurred since I been gone and I feel as though it never would have happened if I would have been there. Bills have gotten harder to pay, step father being rushed to the emergency room, brother barely going to school, and my mom is having more headaches now than she ever had before.
This semester has been like no other, I think that a family crisis has occurred. a question sticks out in my head “Is this a sign for me to be heading back home?”, and I plan to do just that, but I do not want to forget about school. I cannot forget about school because school is going to get my mom and family out the situation and hole that they are in. I pray to God that my father will eat right and do as he is told to better his health and life. With me being home school is no choice for my brother. Because I am there to help keep things under control my mother headaches should go away, and hopefully not return.
You never know what you have until it is gone, I had a family who cared and needed my help but did not realize it because I was being selfish. But I was always told “Let no man despise our youth, but be thou examples of the believers in words, conversation, spirit, faith, charity, and purity.” 1 Thessalonians 4:12