Selfish???

Going home is something I never thought I would want to do, however now that I am actually away, I am ready to go back. So many issues and situations has occurred since I been gone and I feel as though it never would have happened if I would have been there. Bills have gotten harder to pay, step father being rushed to the emergency room, brother barely going to school, and my mom is having more headaches now than she ever had before.
This semester has been like no other, I think that a family crisis has occurred. a question sticks out in my head “Is this a sign for me to be heading back home?”, and I plan to do just that, but I do not want to forget about school. I cannot forget about school because school is going to get my mom and family out the situation and hole that they are in. I pray to God that my father will eat right and do as he is told to better his health and life. With me being home school is no choice for my brother. Because I am there to help keep things under control my mother headaches should go away, and hopefully not return.
You never know what you have until it is gone, I had a family who cared and needed my help but did not realize it because I was being selfish. But I was always told “Let no man despise our youth, but be thou examples of the believers in words, conversation, spirit, faith, charity, and purity.” 1 Thessalonians 4:12

WHO IS HIRING??

Do you have a job? If so please tell me where I can get one. However in the streets of Hattiesburg, Mississippi getting a job has been the hardest thing for me to do. I have put in about twelve applications at many different places like retail stores, hospitals, and even restaurants. I have not yet to receive a call from any of those places, but those places had signs and posters telling the customers “NOW HIRING, looking for experiences with smiling faces.” And yes I have those qualities. Although I feel like giving the search I cannot because I have a car which includes a car note, car insurance, and most of all gas. With the way that gas prices are going I need to work two jobs. Not only do I have to worry about my car but food to eat and clothes to wear. Clothes are something that I like, but I do not necessarily have to have it, but it sure does feel good to buy a new shirt, pair of pants, or shoes every once in a while. But the food is something I feel I cannot live without. I cannot go get five dollars from mom or dad because they are not here with me. And when they do send money it seem as if it was not enough to start with or I spent it too fast. A job is something I want so I can have my own, plus that is given.

Going HOME

Have you ever wander how you ended up at the college that you are at? Do you feel that you made a big mistake and is prepared to go back? The impression that the University of Southern Mississippi had on me was so glorious to the point where my family, friends, and teachers all wanted me to go. Pictures and information about different events were sent to my house with people on them looking so happy and proud to be a student or teacher. Therefore I made USM my top choice for college, I consider it to be my first draft pick. In high school we were allowed to have two College Days and for both of my days I chose to go to the University of Southern Mississippi. When I went for the college day the school was overpopulated and so beautiful that it was irresistible. However once I finally arrive to the school it was still beautiful but the population seemed as if it did not exist. Although I came to school to learn, I also came to meet new people and have fun (not always clubbing, but some clubbing is included). After clubbing week after week and spending that five dollars to get in (which adds up), clubbing gets boring and there is nothings else to do. Campus activities are not enjoyable, I feel that it is all about the Benjamin’s. In order to do this one must pay a fee of this amount. The people that I usually see on campus are freshman, young couples, and if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend back at home you end up alone because you are doing everything it takes not to cheat. My feelings about USM has changed dramatically and would like to go back home, which I plan to do.